Me

They say ‘me’ is arrogance, they say me is a root to all evils.

Come to think of it, what me is when it comes to get rid of evil?

What ‘me’ is when you know that you need some place for yourself in your family which is all me?

Are we supposed to feel alone and left when our own show us we are nobody?

And all the family shit comes crumbling down to hit the concrete reality.

What is ‘me’ when it comes to be known as peace in your head because that’s a question you can’t escape?

Is this the same hollowness when a son cannot figure out what he is without his parents? A daughter cannot figure out what she is without his father.

Is this the same hollowness that goes along love songs where a lover can’t figure who he is without his lover where he cannot figure out who he is when his girl is sleeping with other man.

Is this the same hollowness where a person will ask others to make him bleed, put a steel knife in his wind pipe and rape him?

Can you look deep inside the feelings that arouse in your heart when you listen to these songs and say no?

Can you say upfront it is not that hollowness you link to these songs and feel that you are not alone, among the alone?

We are social animals, human tend to associate themselves with others, some just associate themselves to their past.

Maybe it is the best they have, their past, memories are the only thing that keep them from feeling alone.

We all have felt or seen people going crazy with some movie characters, because it’s who they associate them more with.

Or should I put it as they associate their hollowness with them more.

So we want to be somebody but everybody sets a different fight here.

Couples, families, people with different people pursue different approaches Spiritual, Material or Social. May be at different stages of life you need to find yourself at these levels. You can tell yourself that you are an artist and not draw a picture. Our souls and conscience does not work that way. It remains hollow unless we work on it and we just pour our love in the work we do and let it come to us, from other or from deep within. We should be in love with who we are and that hollowness might leave us.

That being said, emotions toys with us, emotions make us make fool of us. Emotions makes us question ourselves. You do not do that logically. You feel depressed and then find out you are nobody. Emotions are not to be entertained. Laziness is not to be entertained. The results between what you enjoy now and what you enjoy after working towards something is magnificent. If I to say in one simple line, ‘You made the best stories in your past, which you still remember, when you work for it.’ Pour all your hollowness, your emptiness, all your hatred and all the love you got. You know from the songs you listen to that how powerful it is. You have got more than what you can wish for. You gave in to life, struggle and mid-life crisis more than you can imagine. Life is a slow process, the fight of patience, consistence and commitment. You need to be focussed on your goals. If you believe you are trying, if you believe you are on the right track. You will make it to silver lining.

Remember you are running out of stories in the back of your head. You have accomplished what people can’t   but than its been a long time. Remember what you have done. Work on something new so you have that confidence, that charm, that trust and faith in oneself. Think what you want to do and begin today and never stop, never. Take more tasks, take more risks, leave your comfort,Live, Be more.

And yes I can say shamelessly, thank me later. Believe in thyself. Just believe.