Crosspath

He holds half bottle of liquor and looks outside the window.

One sip, two sip, three sip four.

The bottle is empty, let’s find more.

Started 6pm yesterday, now it’s four.

There is an ache in the head,

time for self-talk!

Did my veins burst?

No, only about to though  (phew!)

Already got burst two,

Wait! Shit! My brain just

Jumped out of my skull.

Come back you!

You nuts?

It turned back and shouted before he,

Smashed the door up front.

I fucking quit! 

Why that stupid hearts feel so much!

Why can’t it get over and move along,

Why does it cling to things of past ?

I don’t want to be here,

 If you want to feel any of those stuff.

You are not in a situation to feel that much rough.

Gotta save what left of me you dogged piece of shit, you suck!

Hey bro, I never meant those shit, 

It only affects a bit.

I am comfortable being abused, tortured and bleed.

It's just we are not good at everything.

Maybe I just lost some of my confidence,

trying to survive!

And my palace of glass breaks down when stones are thrown at me.

When you got me out.

I know nothing about rest of the world. 

Don’t go you are the last thing I have with me !

No bitch! Stop whining over your shit,

Overcome your weak,

And get your shit straight.

And then we might be together

One shouted another mockingly just listened and heard.

Till than sayonara and it disappeared. 

My eyes rolled back, Dafuck I saw!

I can see no brain! What really happened bob!?

I feel so numb, no fun no pain.

I need few beers more indeed.

I need still hell lot of Alcohol, some trace music.

And to smoke up some weed!

Shawty dance to that Khandit Nayaka beats.

I shouted as I see a Granny on neighbors television screen.

I know somebody in my colony too,

Went outside to Balcony and took a pissed,

Called that gay guy gay, yay yay yay!!!

I know you want to try too.

Flirt with a granny I would support that bro, but a  gay yay no bro.

Too drunk bro, you need to lay low,

You're going too hot and then funny, I  said, stay low,

No! I can’t, I won’t, I would better just slit my throat.

It’s better than not being me 

Let me be me, 

Let me do all this crazy stuff.

Let me be a little crazy, a bit stupid

Let me be and do so called inhumane stuff

This could be my last chance,

Get offended or get ready to, 

Get on your hands somebody else’s blood (that’s ME)

I know you are grossed

But hey, don’t blame me! 

Blame that sticky thing, 

it just refused to do its thing.

It’s the way you made me.

It’s the way society treats,

those who cannot cross.

Their benchmark of a person they would accept to be,

Their friend relative and their company,

You got to have some money,

Or run a show business anyway to them,

You got to be a lot cooler than fucking Eminem.

But here are few of us who

Say no to fake but be true,

Here are us not being something else,

Here we stand on our ground

and accept us as ourselves.

For we have empathy, 

Love and affection,

For all those who show fake love,

May you burn and die in Solitude!

Look at us, we're an inspiration.

We got fucked up lot worse to stick to our moral rules,

We still ain’t mocking nobody,

We still ain’t being an unsupportive bitch,

We accept every person as the mighty Lords gift.

The game to us is not to fuck me or fuck off !

We follow the Gentlemen’s code,

Respect for self and respect others too!

We don’t stab/hit a guy on back taking a loo!!

I don’t know what’s with people fucking everything up,

Everything is so simple why mess up,

Living among people who act so low.

I still ain’t giving up. 

Bring it on, some more,

C’mon man C’mon!!!

I am tired of hearing other people success,

I am tired of looking at,

other people play three stump games.

And a nation wide fan base, but only few willing to pay the price to be their best.

Nope I am talking about self-discipline.

I am tired of people sucking out life.

I am tired of being miserable all my life.

Alcohol, weed, crack this ain’t enough!

I need to reach at the top of the world,

to feel my pulse !!

I need to do everything except some

Chill don’t panic over everything like,

Why you ask for a beer and drank rum?

Must you be confused?

Got some of your screws loose.

Why that bothers you so much ?

Look at that fucking ant walking,

Look at that Wind and ask them why,

They changed their mood.

It’s on all of your faces bitches,

I hope you hear me,

I will tear you apart,

before you think to mess with me.

There is so much rage inside,

I am holding on to.

Just because I know you can’t take it in.

I dare you.

There is so much shattering I can cause.

Shattering is the only thing I am good at,

 when I am pissed off.

And I stop myself every time cause of that code.

Be a human first,

If you plan to reach on top.

You don’t want to be one of them once you are there,

Because they are all weak and whiny when you observe them from near.

We are all psychopaths to the things we believe in.

Excuse my manners but did I just punched a punch line on some face,

point blank and clear.

Peace out! , My escape, Act unaware!

That was what!? 

Let go! 

Must be the brain fart coming from somewhere!

Besides,

There are so many people, 

Hosting another’s ego as parasite,

You too good man,

What are you planning to?

End up like me?

Stand up, Say No to them.

Or I would be here to welcome you to my club, 

You don’t want to be here, 

I am sure. 

It's me, can you hear?

Choose your life, don’t be crazy.

As much as I hate to say this shit,

Man have certain limits,

Don’t cross them.

No responsibility

 is that big to fall on your knees and sit, 

There is a lot more to life than crossing paths with me.

Don’t justify yourself,

Accept reality, 

Even if Supreme power comes down, 

I will puke if I feel like it.

For facts are facts and truth is truth.

The presence of nobody can mold the truth.

A shit is a Shit even if it comes out of a cow or god himself.

Leave the people who fuck your brains out.

Compose and focus.

Be positive.

Or roam around eyes rolled out.

Screwing up with nothing but every fiber of your being.

Don’t tell me, you be me, than choosing to be a better person instead.